Thursday, June 26, 2008

why are some women so competitive?

I have/had this friend. In retrospect, I understand that she is completely fucked up. completely. Kinda gay, but fucks a lot of people out of confusion about sexuality and survived abuse blah blah blah. Refuses therapy cause it's too hard. Really? too hard? and the way you're choosing to live with all the crying and drinking and drugs is easier? you are STUPID.

Anyway.. before I realized she was fucked up completely, I just thought she was my nice lesbian friend. I like to give any woman the benefit of the doubt (I like girlfriends - really I do, but FUCK what the hell is wrong with some of them???) ok, getting off the track. sorry. She started fucking my guy friends. awkward, but whatever.

THEN she tried to fuck my boyfriend. Not so cool.

BUT NO, it gets better.

She starts fucking every guy I meet, make friends with or who hits on me. EVERY ONE. This is a lot of people. She even insinuated to one man that I would be involved in their sex act if he agreed to go home with her that night (she had already previously bedded him and took pictures just so she could show me) Thankfully, he saw the bullshit and knows I'm not a whore. She has now slept with almost every guy I know - including a guy I just went on a date with. I couldn't figure out the connection (every guy she has been with since I've known her connects back to me). Turns out he was supposed to go on a blind date with me a couple months ago, she found out and picked him up in a bar and took him home. ick.

All in all she slept with more than 15 of my guy friends in 2 months. Some repeatedly and probably more that I don't know about. Now every time I make a new friend I feel like I have to either warn the guy or not tell anyone that I met someone. Tries this with women, too - only she's less successful at bedding them. I have since learned that all this fucking is an attempt to get ME to sleep with her... she's hinted at it when she was high/drunk and I blew it off. She's been competing with me for man attention in an attempt to get me to fuck her. WTF?. What kind of fucktard logic is this? piss me off and I'll want you? Spreading herpes makes you sexy to me? Sending me pictures with come dripping out your ass makes me love you? No. you are a pathetic whore with issues. I would not touch you for all the money in the world. Not now, not ever. stop it. I am very angry and I'm not going to get over it.

To add to the ick factor - the blind date guy, who I went out with last week, wants to see me again. I'm completely and totally grossed out. I know where she's been, I've seen pictures and gotten detailed accounts (NOT by choice she sends this shit to my phone. ew.) of her conquests and I know she's not careful. AT ALL.

How do I tell him that I think he's vile by proxy? How do I tell him that I'm so disappointed with his choices of sexual partners that I never want to kiss him? What kind of guy sleeps with a woman like her anyway?? was it just easy? did you not SEE that she was not right in the head? do you not realize how badly it reflects on you? kee-rist. issues. I get angry just thinking about it.

Thank god I'm going away this weekend (I have a date with a seattle guy in LA - who I have told NO ONE about).

This is not the first woman who has done this, so I need to find out why I keep picking out fucked up women to be friends with or why I'm not seeing the fucked-up-ed-ness in the beginning. argh. I am very angry with her, angry with the men who fuck such an easy target and angry with myself for allowing this kind of garbage into my world.

Time to take out the trash.

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